Meet My 두부(DuBu) a.k.a Péah :)

She Tweets! LOL

She's such a blessing. how did I end up taking her? Well, someone told me that there's a kiddo took her from school, and then left her at my homeyard. First time I saw her I was like, "Anak kucing putih,gile comel. Dah lama aku xde anak kucing, kan best kalau bole adopt je.." then I thought, "she's so little, tengah menyusu lagi kot. kang ade jgk aku bunuh budak tu. amek kucing ni tapi bukannye nak jage, tinggal kat rumah orang pulak.Kesiannye~". So I asked my mom if I can take her. But then she said don't, because soon I'll be away from home, there'll be nobody to look after her. It's frustrating but since it's a fact, I just agreed. It was really heartbreaking to left her alone. Then less than an hour later, someone came and told me that she was bitten by another cat. dammit, Seriously I felt guilty. It was my fault, if I took her earlier, things won't be this way. Guilt runs all over me when I saw her. I thought she was dead, but she's not. she's dying, but she's alive. 
So I decided to take her. The wound wasn't that massive, tapi since she's alone, I bet she was more scared and hurt.

I spent my days with her, watching her healing before I left home for my new semester. Everytime I called my mom, I could hear her voice 'meow-ing'. Seriously, it was damn loud that I thought my mom put the phone in front of her, but the truth is, my mom was in the living room and she's at the kitchen. That's how I was assured that she was well and healthy. Now that I'm home, OMG she eats ALOTTTT. Too much that I'm afraid that her tummy will burst. LOL. 

she moves like a jagger and eats like a MONSTER.

And her voice is EPIC. Loudest cat ever. haha. but everytime I saw her sleeping, my eyes got teary. 

She slept on the laptop charger when I was online. when I lift her onto the table, she gets on my laptop keyboard. At first, I thought, "아이고~ 귀엽다.". 

But when I think again, "she must've missed her mom's warmth". 

That's why she slept there, and even if I move her to the sofa, she prefers going back to the warm spots. 

The day after tomorrow, I'm leaving again for college. sucks, I'm gonna miss her. Like seriously miss her. This is only leaving her for Bangi, what if I've got the chance to go to France? :'( I wish i could bring her with me wherever I go. She's the second cat I loved this much, after Ciput; my little black cat.

R.I.P my love. :'(

I miss him. Seriously I miss my cats. Comel, Kitty, Cico, Jojo, Misai, Nurul, Sitam~ I miss you guys.
 (crazy names huh? ^^" ) . 
I really hope that someday my home can be filled with cats again. though it's gonna be tiring, at least I can always have company when I have nobody to talk to.

 Anyway, live long my baby 두부(DuBu) a.k.a Péah. This unnie promise to take care of you. Don't be scared eventhough your mom isn't with you, because WE are with you. We love you 두부아~ 

Vulnerable

What's going on with me?? EXACTLY WHAT"S GOING ON? how could I shed my tears in class? In front of them? OMG I really really regret choosing to talk about that. 

Well, simplifying the story, we happened to be given a task, to talk bout what happened throughout 2011. So being the dumbass I am, I decided to talk about what really happened in my life. Bout the hard time I've been through. Seriously, I felt nothing emotional when I decided to talk about it. I just took it as a task that needs me to talk about something and nothing more than that. No personal emotions or sympathy-seeking intended. NOT AT ALL. But unexpectedly, once my name is called out, once I stood up at the front, I'm losing it. YES, I can't even speak the words I've prepared. My voice gone shakin, my head gone crazy and my.. my heart shrinks? IDK if it's the hardship that made me so emotional like that but thinking about it, it's really unexpected for me to go vulnerable like that in front of them. good thing that my tears didn't rushed out while I was talking. Good thing I don't show them my crying face; though my voice told 'em almost everything I'm feeling. I just hope they will never see that side of me anymore. NEVER. 

First Time..

It's my first time playing the CD!! OMG I seriously thought that i will never play it . But knowing that the boys have something special in store in their album, I can do nothing but to spin it for the first time. and as expected, the boys never fail in making me proud of them . Infinite FTW :)