Vulnerable

What's going on with me?? EXACTLY WHAT"S GOING ON? how could I shed my tears in class? In front of them? OMG I really really regret choosing to talk about that. 

Well, simplifying the story, we happened to be given a task, to talk bout what happened throughout 2011. So being the dumbass I am, I decided to talk about what really happened in my life. Bout the hard time I've been through. Seriously, I felt nothing emotional when I decided to talk about it. I just took it as a task that needs me to talk about something and nothing more than that. No personal emotions or sympathy-seeking intended. NOT AT ALL. But unexpectedly, once my name is called out, once I stood up at the front, I'm losing it. YES, I can't even speak the words I've prepared. My voice gone shakin, my head gone crazy and my.. my heart shrinks? IDK if it's the hardship that made me so emotional like that but thinking about it, it's really unexpected for me to go vulnerable like that in front of them. good thing that my tears didn't rushed out while I was talking. Good thing I don't show them my crying face; though my voice told 'em almost everything I'm feeling. I just hope they will never see that side of me anymore. NEVER.