Enough is enough.

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you
It's not like that at all
There's a girl
That gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walked through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

I love
The way you are
It's who I am
Don't have to try hard
We always say
Say it like it is
And the truth
Is that I really miss


All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

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Okay that was before. Not anymore. Now it's time for me to stop doing that fucking thing. stop stalking, stop hoping and stop procrastinating. Enough is enough. It was only me who take things seriously but not them.  I bet they'll LOL at me if they knew this. Silly me. Sumpah penat doe. aku menyampah gile ngan aku punye keadaan sekarang. seriously, aku ada banyak lagi benda yg penting untuk aku pikir, tapi kenape aku kena pikir pasal dorang? I mean; come on la. aku pun taw this is only temporary, but why is this temporary  felt so long?? i'm tired of waiting. not for the outcome, but for it to ends. I seriously don't need this feeling. I've watched over how did I became a fool for this fucking thing called L***, and I don't want that to happen again. once is enough. I was happy enough without this sorta thing in my life so why did it appear in front of me and worse, in this kinda critical moment?? 

I dunno how, but I'll try. Try to get to my old-self. the cold-hearted one. And if going back to the 'dark period' is the solution, I'll do it, whether it'll work or not, we'll see. Aku x sanggup la tengok diri aku macam ni. Sumpah aku x sanggup, because this isn't how I should live. I deserve better than this. So, goodbye.